Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Part 2 of HELP!
So here is a posting from a friend that sums up my feelings on all those amazing blogs and sites out there that we look at to inspire us and then walk away feeling....well like I did yesterday. It is classic and I higly suggest you reading it; The Blogosphere Killed My Momfidence.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Need a little HELP...
So, I have accomplished a few things since the departure of my mother. My main focus and goals have been on the house and taxes (which is a deadline overdue). I have been using the clutter techniques from the Fly Lady and spending just a bit of time (30 minutes) on dreaded tasks before doing something I want to do. This is how yesterday went and where I am today (READ ON PLEASE, I'LL COME TO A POINT SOONER OR LATER).
9-11 clogging (notice I have cut off an hour to get more things done on Mondays!)
11-12:30 Costco (produce, lunch, & girl time)
12:30 Put baby Ewok to bed and let the other two ride bikes while I prepared the front for a power-wash bath
12:45 Set-up Power wahser
1:10 Yelled at power washer for not working, got all worked up and went over to the alley way and swept all the cigarette butts that the apartment dwellers leave on our street while they use our alley way as their own personal smoke house.
1:20 Walk back to the house to discover that my next door neighbors "For Sale" flyer's are being put in her box and she is selling for $9,500 less that we are going to post ours for at the end of the month
1:21 CRY
1:30 Call BF for back-up and a little boost. LOVE THIS LADY AS SHE JUMPED RIGHT ON MY TRUCK AND IS COMING DOWN FRIDAY FOR A WORK DAY.
1:45 Started painting
6:12 Warm up left overs for Ewoks dinner, then continued to paint.
7:30 Han Solo got home so I stopped painting to say hi and tell him to warm up left overs for dinner. I grabbed a bag of chips and a coke for my dinner and heading back up stairs (made progress see) to finish more painting.
8:10 Realized that the Ewoks were still awake but had not gotten a bath, so I told Han to do it and went back to painting.
8:20 Put baby Ewok to bed and went back to painting. Cleaned it all up at 8:35.
8:40 blow dried both Ewok's hair and cuddled with them in my bed watching the Olympics for a bit.
9:20 Took first shower of the day (for those that dance with me, I know I'm gross but it just didn't happen earlier) then fell into bed.
Okay so a lot got done in reality, BUT in my head this morning as I look at my little sampling of favorite blogs that inspire me I find myself not inspired but disappointed in myself and the lack of abilities I feel I am without.
WHY, why do we, as women, do this to ourselves.
Even after writing out the things that I did do yesterday, things that needed to be done, this is where my mind is; 'My house is a mess, the sink is full of dishes but the dishwasher is empty, I have two loads of clean laundry waiting to be folded and 3 hampers full of clothes waiting to be cleaned. My advent calendar from Valentines is not done, the dress I wanted to make for the girls are not finished, which means I am not getting money for the two I want to sell, a friend is having a baby shower tonight and the bow tie and booties I want to make for her are still only in my head, I don't even have material for them, and even if I were to go and look at material I feel I have no money left to buy it or food or anything (which is a slight over-exaggeration) and that brings me to my taxes which are due, LIKE NOW! And I found out that the tags on my car are expired and now I have to go to the DEQ and the DMV today in between dance and its raining out so the park day I promised the girls yesterday when it was bright and beautiful and I, YES I, wanted to power wash the front patio so I told them we couldn't go, but the power washing never got done'.
NEGATIVE! NEGATIVE! NEGATIVE! WOW.
Great way to start your day huh. Help me out a little here. I need to know what others do when they get this way (other than uppers please) and if you don't get this way, rather then handing me a knife for my gutt, just make something up that sounds good. I need some good ideas for days like these.
9-11 clogging (notice I have cut off an hour to get more things done on Mondays!)
11-12:30 Costco (produce, lunch, & girl time)
12:30 Put baby Ewok to bed and let the other two ride bikes while I prepared the front for a power-wash bath
12:45 Set-up Power wahser
1:10 Yelled at power washer for not working, got all worked up and went over to the alley way and swept all the cigarette butts that the apartment dwellers leave on our street while they use our alley way as their own personal smoke house.
1:20 Walk back to the house to discover that my next door neighbors "For Sale" flyer's are being put in her box and she is selling for $9,500 less that we are going to post ours for at the end of the month
1:21 CRY
1:30 Call BF for back-up and a little boost. LOVE THIS LADY AS SHE JUMPED RIGHT ON MY TRUCK AND IS COMING DOWN FRIDAY FOR A WORK DAY.
1:45 Started painting
6:12 Warm up left overs for Ewoks dinner, then continued to paint.
7:30 Han Solo got home so I stopped painting to say hi and tell him to warm up left overs for dinner. I grabbed a bag of chips and a coke for my dinner and heading back up stairs (made progress see) to finish more painting.
8:10 Realized that the Ewoks were still awake but had not gotten a bath, so I told Han to do it and went back to painting.
8:20 Put baby Ewok to bed and went back to painting. Cleaned it all up at 8:35.
8:40 blow dried both Ewok's hair and cuddled with them in my bed watching the Olympics for a bit.
9:20 Took first shower of the day (for those that dance with me, I know I'm gross but it just didn't happen earlier) then fell into bed.
Okay so a lot got done in reality, BUT in my head this morning as I look at my little sampling of favorite blogs that inspire me I find myself not inspired but disappointed in myself and the lack of abilities I feel I am without.
WHY, why do we, as women, do this to ourselves.
Even after writing out the things that I did do yesterday, things that needed to be done, this is where my mind is; 'My house is a mess, the sink is full of dishes but the dishwasher is empty, I have two loads of clean laundry waiting to be folded and 3 hampers full of clothes waiting to be cleaned. My advent calendar from Valentines is not done, the dress I wanted to make for the girls are not finished, which means I am not getting money for the two I want to sell, a friend is having a baby shower tonight and the bow tie and booties I want to make for her are still only in my head, I don't even have material for them, and even if I were to go and look at material I feel I have no money left to buy it or food or anything (which is a slight over-exaggeration) and that brings me to my taxes which are due, LIKE NOW! And I found out that the tags on my car are expired and now I have to go to the DEQ and the DMV today in between dance and its raining out so the park day I promised the girls yesterday when it was bright and beautiful and I, YES I, wanted to power wash the front patio so I told them we couldn't go, but the power washing never got done'.
NEGATIVE! NEGATIVE! NEGATIVE! WOW.
Great way to start your day huh. Help me out a little here. I need to know what others do when they get this way (other than uppers please) and if you don't get this way, rather then handing me a knife for my gutt, just make something up that sounds good. I need some good ideas for days like these.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Mommy & Me Shopping Trip
So one of my new rules for 201o is:
Before shopping for clothing you must (1) make hair pretty (2) make face pretty (3) put on your favorite jeans and everyday shoe (4) put on a favorite shirt that you feel smok'in in.
Normally when shopping for clothes I start out in an okay mood and then the more I see myself naked in those wondrous mirrors the worse my mood becomes. I leave the store with nothing because everything makes me look fat and sloppy and my hair that looked okay pulled back when I got there now looks like a birds nest, and my eyes are red because I am on the brink of tears... Sound familiar? I HATE SHOPPING. I hate spending the money on myself because I can come up with 20 other things to do with it for my family, I hate finding a shirt I love and then reading the price tag, I hate my ankles, I hate, I hate, I hate. The rest of the day is shot because my mood is so poor and Han Solo is disappointed to see me wear the same shirt (normally a Blazer or AM favorite) for the third day in a row (YES, I wash them in between that's why they are barley a year old and they have holes in them already). Shopping can really ruin my day and my attitude about myself.
Well, today my mother took me out shopping for clothes as a birthday gift. I followed my new rule and I felt great walking out the door. I even got so into it that I put on earrings. Now this is big. I normally do not don such lavish things as earrings and necklaces unless it is a Sunday and we are headed to church or Han Solo and I are actually going out on a date. I felt great! So this is what I wore. My favorite jeans (dark and crisp), a long sleeved gray Shade shirt (love them!), a light grey cropped short sleeve sweater, and my NEW Uggs Han & the Ewoks got me for my birthday (Han Solo sacrificed a few lunches for these bad boys, I LOVE HIM!). I took 10 minutes and put makeup on and actually refreshed my lip gloss three times, cause (DON'T tell Han but) I noticed a few glances in my direction - now this could easily be due to the fact that my youngest Chewbacca was very vocal but I'll stick to my SMOK'IN theory for self gratification reasons).
I found five great tops that I felt beautiful in and I walked out of the store and mall feeling great. I will wear one tomorrow and one on Sunday. Today I fell in love with myself again...if at least for only a day. Thanks Mom, for a great birthday gift. Thanks Han baby and my little Ewoks for a new pair of Uggs, and thanks to everyone else that made my thirtieth birthday one to remember.
Before shopping for clothing you must (1) make hair pretty (2) make face pretty (3) put on your favorite jeans and everyday shoe (4) put on a favorite shirt that you feel smok'in in.
Normally when shopping for clothes I start out in an okay mood and then the more I see myself naked in those wondrous mirrors the worse my mood becomes. I leave the store with nothing because everything makes me look fat and sloppy and my hair that looked okay pulled back when I got there now looks like a birds nest, and my eyes are red because I am on the brink of tears... Sound familiar? I HATE SHOPPING. I hate spending the money on myself because I can come up with 20 other things to do with it for my family, I hate finding a shirt I love and then reading the price tag, I hate my ankles, I hate, I hate, I hate. The rest of the day is shot because my mood is so poor and Han Solo is disappointed to see me wear the same shirt (normally a Blazer or AM favorite) for the third day in a row (YES, I wash them in between that's why they are barley a year old and they have holes in them already). Shopping can really ruin my day and my attitude about myself.
Well, today my mother took me out shopping for clothes as a birthday gift. I followed my new rule and I felt great walking out the door. I even got so into it that I put on earrings. Now this is big. I normally do not don such lavish things as earrings and necklaces unless it is a Sunday and we are headed to church or Han Solo and I are actually going out on a date. I felt great! So this is what I wore. My favorite jeans (dark and crisp), a long sleeved gray Shade shirt (love them!), a light grey cropped short sleeve sweater, and my NEW Uggs Han & the Ewoks got me for my birthday (Han Solo sacrificed a few lunches for these bad boys, I LOVE HIM!). I took 10 minutes and put makeup on and actually refreshed my lip gloss three times, cause (DON'T tell Han but) I noticed a few glances in my direction - now this could easily be due to the fact that my youngest Chewbacca was very vocal but I'll stick to my SMOK'IN theory for self gratification reasons).
I found five great tops that I felt beautiful in and I walked out of the store and mall feeling great. I will wear one tomorrow and one on Sunday. Today I fell in love with myself again...if at least for only a day. Thanks Mom, for a great birthday gift. Thanks Han baby and my little Ewoks for a new pair of Uggs, and thanks to everyone else that made my thirtieth birthday one to remember.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Farewell Twenties
Age is Relative
They shall still bring forth fruit in old age;
they shall be fat and flourishing.
-Psalm 92:14
It always good to know that you are following the scriptures and this one is particularly easy to follow. As I sit here and eat my cereal I am hit with the reality that this is the last day I will ever be in the twenty's and I am starting on a new decade. WOW. I have accomplished many amazing things. Here are a few at the top:
1. I am sealed for Time & Eternity to the greatest man in the world
2. I have three amazing little girls
3. I have a Bachelor's Degree in my favorite field
4. While the numbers are limited the girls that I call my favorite are the most inspiring, spiritual, amazing, and beautiful women I know, I love them and they love me
5. We own a house (if only for a few more months)
6. I have traveled to different countries (thanks mom & dad) and learned so much from that
7. I have found a Hobie that I love and I think I'm pretty good at (which helps the ego)
8. My Han Solo bought me the coolest car ever for my birthday a few years ago
9. I still play and love sports, I dance every week, and get out of the house almost on a daily basis with my Ewoks to explore the world around us
10. Despite all the things I am trying to improve because I have not been as happy as I think I should be...guess what I AM HAPPY and I AM LOVED!
Not a bad list on the last day of my twenties.
President Gordon B. Hinckley said this;
"Age is more a matter of how you feel, how you think, and what's going on in your head than what's going on in your feet."
I hope that for the next ten years I will be able to remember this. I remember growing up and I had some friends who's mothers and fathers were the same age as my grandparents and I thought WOW they are old. Others were younger but acted old and then there were mine who were not too young and not too old. I remember them as having fun and enjoying life with my brother and I. I remember thinking I want to be young enough when I am a mom so that I can be considered fun to my kids and we can play and do things together. I had my first Ewok at the same age my mother was when she had me, so I am on a good track. Thanks mom & dad for the last 30 years and thanks Han Solo for still thinking I am beautiful and fun even if I will no longer be a twenty-something.
Farewell Twenties HELLO THIRTIES!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
My second deadline is upon me and hopefully, if I stay up till Midnight, I will complete the advent calendar tonight. Just so I feel a little better, here are a few of my excuses:
(1) My washer machine has been broken since last Thursday or Friday and I have to walk my clothes down the street to a sweet friends house so Han Solo and I are not dubbed the "stinky family"
(2) I have been teaching my eldest Ewoks preschool since November and this is my last week. Actually my last two days of teaching my first born preschool ever...I am kinda emotional about this...really emotional.
(3) I have started on my house projects for the week which include packing more boxes, painting before my mom comes and visits, moving boxes to in-laws for cheap storage, and other things.
(4) As I am sitting here my youngest two Chewies are litterly running circles around the island screaming at each other because the middle Chewy stole the Chutes& Ladders game they were attempting to play, and so now the little Chewy has jumped up to the table and stolen the other Chewy's left over circle which is being poured into her own....bowl was the attempt table and floor are the outcome. TO MUCH NOISE I MUST GO NOW!
(1) My washer machine has been broken since last Thursday or Friday and I have to walk my clothes down the street to a sweet friends house so Han Solo and I are not dubbed the "stinky family"
(2) I have been teaching my eldest Ewoks preschool since November and this is my last week. Actually my last two days of teaching my first born preschool ever...I am kinda emotional about this...really emotional.
(3) I have started on my house projects for the week which include packing more boxes, painting before my mom comes and visits, moving boxes to in-laws for cheap storage, and other things.
(4) As I am sitting here my youngest two Chewies are litterly running circles around the island screaming at each other because the middle Chewy stole the Chutes& Ladders game they were attempting to play, and so now the little Chewy has jumped up to the table and stolen the other Chewy's left over circle which is being poured into her own....bowl was the attempt table and floor are the outcome. TO MUCH NOISE I MUST GO NOW!
Monday, February 1, 2010
My first Failure
"The Lord did not send you here to fail. He did not give you life to waste it. He bestowed upon you the gift of mortality that you might gain experience - positive, wonderful, purposeful experience - that will lead to life eternal."
Is that not beautiful! I think of this quote every time I fail or think that I have failed at something. So why is it here today? Because it is February 1st and my advent calendar is not finished. And yet I will prevail. We will be writing our love notes to Han Solo tonight after dinner and tomorrow my family will write love notes to me and by Wednesday we will place those notes into an advent calendar that will almost be complete.
Yet with failure there is success. These are the items from my unfinished project that I did complete and it does feel great to be free of these. This week I am working on unfinished projects around the house. My list will be posted tomorrow. So here are my successes.
Actually the disc from Costco is not working so you don't get to see my successes but I completed all 3 church bags, made a dress for a friend, finished the up-cycled shirt dress, and worked a bit on other items. One day the pictures will be up...perhaps.
Is that not beautiful! I think of this quote every time I fail or think that I have failed at something. So why is it here today? Because it is February 1st and my advent calendar is not finished. And yet I will prevail. We will be writing our love notes to Han Solo tonight after dinner and tomorrow my family will write love notes to me and by Wednesday we will place those notes into an advent calendar that will almost be complete.
Yet with failure there is success. These are the items from my unfinished project that I did complete and it does feel great to be free of these. This week I am working on unfinished projects around the house. My list will be posted tomorrow. So here are my successes.
Actually the disc from Costco is not working so you don't get to see my successes but I completed all 3 church bags, made a dress for a friend, finished the up-cycled shirt dress, and worked a bit on other items. One day the pictures will be up...perhaps.
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